Post by Stephen (League Admin) on Jan 7, 2020 18:02:04 GMT
Hey all, hope everyone had a good Christmas and New Years.
I took the opportunity to address some issues that i've been having and to determine what I want to do in the future. A big part of that is this league. I've been doing this for 18 years now, and so have some of you (thank you), and that is a long time. There are a number of problems I've had to deal with, mainly workloads, but in the last 18 months i've also had some health problems and, I guess, some mental problems as well, with these being a big concern for me and having the greatest effect on my life.
Work wise I am in a better position than i've been for a long time. I should no longer be required to work late, at short notice, with frequent time away from home (though some times this will still happen as I do a lot of travelling now and can be hundreds of miles from home). This would gives me more time to put in to the league along with much greater consistency and thats really what has made me consider what I want to do.
Work wise I am in a better position than i've been for a long time. I should no longer be required to work late, at short notice, with frequent time away from home (though some times this will still happen as I do a lot of travelling now and can be hundreds of miles from home). This would gives me more time to put in to the league along with much greater consistency and thats really what has made me consider what I want to do.
Health wise, I have nerve damage which is progressively getting worse, and as times it can be quite painful and exhausting. This means that quite often all I want to do is get in a comfortable place and not move out of it and a long day travelling often results in me going straight to bed. This of course means I would have less time and consistency for the league.
Mentally, I have a real problem that is effecting everything I do, work, study (something I have to do continuosly for the job im in), hobbies (including ghl) and that is that I am scared of doing anything. I have no idea why this is, if there is a name for it, but getting started on anything requires an extreme effort which 9 times out of 10 im just not prepared to put in.This became a real concern for me in October where I put my job at risk by constantly putting off report writing as I was too scared to start out of some belief that I didnt know what I was talking about. I've put studies on hold for the same reason. I constantly feel as if I will fail at anything I attempt to do and therefore its easier not to do it.
I've taken the holiday period to look at what I want to do and how I am going to deal with this issue. One thing I looked at was am I doing to much and should I cut back on things as it always feels I don't have enough time. However, I feel the reason I have no time is that i'm delaying starting anything to the last possible moment rather than being too busy. I also think that deciding to do less is just going to encourage me to do less and I don't believe that will solve my problems.
How does this effect the GHL? I'm not looking to give it up. In fact, I think by forcing myself to do it (i do enjoy doing it btw, once i get started) it will help regulate part of my life and hopefully help me overcome this issue that i'm having.
Mentally, I have a real problem that is effecting everything I do, work, study (something I have to do continuosly for the job im in), hobbies (including ghl) and that is that I am scared of doing anything. I have no idea why this is, if there is a name for it, but getting started on anything requires an extreme effort which 9 times out of 10 im just not prepared to put in.This became a real concern for me in October where I put my job at risk by constantly putting off report writing as I was too scared to start out of some belief that I didnt know what I was talking about. I've put studies on hold for the same reason. I constantly feel as if I will fail at anything I attempt to do and therefore its easier not to do it.
I've taken the holiday period to look at what I want to do and how I am going to deal with this issue. One thing I looked at was am I doing to much and should I cut back on things as it always feels I don't have enough time. However, I feel the reason I have no time is that i'm delaying starting anything to the last possible moment rather than being too busy. I also think that deciding to do less is just going to encourage me to do less and I don't believe that will solve my problems.
How does this effect the GHL? I'm not looking to give it up. In fact, I think by forcing myself to do it (i do enjoy doing it btw, once i get started) it will help regulate part of my life and hopefully help me overcome this issue that i'm having.
So, my apologies that I have been a bit abscent recently and a huge thank you to those who have stepped upm with out being asked, to fill in and keep things going. You've actually given me the opportunity to take two weeks and have a good hard think about this, so i'm extremly grateful for that. I'll be back to simming on a regular basis now and i'll be making sure I have the time to adminsiter the non sim side of the league better as well.
I felt I needed to explain all this due to the length of time and the level of help many of you have provided over the years.
I've not downloaded the latest gamefile yet but i'm off to do so now. I understanding its trade deadline time soon so there is going to be some work for me to do. I will update you all on that today.
Once again, Thank you all for our support and continued involvement in the league.
I felt I needed to explain all this due to the length of time and the level of help many of you have provided over the years.
I've not downloaded the latest gamefile yet but i'm off to do so now. I understanding its trade deadline time soon so there is going to be some work for me to do. I will update you all on that today.
Once again, Thank you all for our support and continued involvement in the league.
Stephen
i'll be doing it all on friday as its teh only day off I have at the moment. Sorry, we are down people and its long late shifts at teh moment. 